Today it was cold! Very little snow on the ground, but it was flurrying on and off. Schools were closed...again. Logan had fun at home though. We all slept in and it was really nice. Logan loves to cuddle with us in the morning, well, we enjoy it too!

The urologist called me and my procedure is Friday. Of course they scheduled it on the day I am going back to work. Since they are putting me under, I will not be able to work that day. I called my boss to tell her and she seemed kinda peeved, but told me that I wont have to work that day. So, I hope she is not terribly upset. But I know that something is definetly wrong. My back has been hurting really bad, well I say my back but I am sure its my kidneys. Today I am having a lot of pain in my belly and pelvic area. I am really tired of always hurting. I am trying not to take the pain medicine, but if I dont take it then the pain gets out of control and nothing helps. Ibuprofen helps a little bit, but it makes me sick to my stomach. Plus, I cant take it right now since I am having that procedure done. Tylenol does nada. I hate asking the dr for more pain meds, but how am I supposed to get through the day? I havent been able to sleep well at night either. It takes forever to fall asleep, and then I wake up several times.

Well, I am hoping that this painful journey will end soon. I love my hubby, but he doesnt deal very well with my recent health issues. Who can blame him? There has been a lot thrown on me in these past 5 months and he has had to take a lot of responsibilities, things that I normally do (cleaning, cooking, etc). Its not fair for him with all that he already does. So, I really dont tell him everything that I am going through. He only knows bits and pieces, I dont want to freak him out. But I am really scared, I hate that I feel this way every single day. I really thought surgery was going to help, and in a way it did, but I am still hurting.